Happy Birthday, Ken.

I wrote this the day Ken left to Switzerland. And it's been in my drafts since then; untouched. Today's his 20th birthday, and I shall finish this post where I started.

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Can’t believe that day has arrived.

He’s the most chilled one in the family; always making jokes which we will all laugh; always making awkward and tense moments seem lighter.

He introduced me to the song Cookie Jar, How I met your mother TV series, World series of Poker, and so many more wonderful things which I can't even think of right now.

He has a big heart- never judging, never condemning. He is kind, patient, funny, one of the most likeable people you can find around.

He is my darling brother.

Who’s gonna fetch me around now whenever and wherever I want? Who’s gonna listen to all my rants and complaints? Who’s gonna be there to acknowledge my manja and lame self?

Boy I already miss you, Ken.

Have a great & memorable 20th over there in Switzerland, please remember that all of us back home miss you and love you so much.

My humble abode :)

Hello all! Ok, this post is dedicated to my dearest family, who has insisted countless times to have a look at my new place. I apologize for taking so long, and the pictures won't upload in the email. Well, here it is, papa & mummy!

Welcome to my humble abode :)

The 'mini' living room

(mini but absolutely cosy ;p)

Look closely at the corner of the both sofas, lies this little corner :)

Ipod edifier, a family picture, magazines and a scented candle

The one poster I knew I had to purchase the moment I laid eyes on it

(I would think I am an optimist where I choose to see the glass half full ;p)

My little dining table!

Notice anything?

the flower I got from Ikea matches with my tissue box :) I love!

Kitchen :)
Nothing fancy but like what they always say, simplicity sometimes is the best.

Shoerack (with my favourite celebrity above it :P)
I had to buy 2 shoeracks and stock it one above another..

Toilette ;)
I know I'm sucha Serena fan, well they say if you look at the image of someone you wish to emulate everyday, eventually you'll turn out like that someone.

Wardrobe.
And a picture of me when I was a little girl, I like :-P
Each time I look at it I feel so hopeful, naive and young at heart again.

The view of Cardigan Street (quieter part of the city) from my unit.
And I'm not complaining :)

My study area :)
where I'm typing this post up now hehe and the place where I'm supposed to spend most of my time at, yet it's NOT. sigh

the $19.00 longg mirror I got from good ol' Ikea!!
which I later found out reject shop sells for $10 for something almost similar...

A 'sneak peak' into my bedroom
(Absolutely love the flowers and vase I got from Ikea! good investment indeed)

Bedroom
(Cosy and warm, right?? :D no wonder can't wake up early lah... lol)

Lastly, at the corner of my bed:

a page I extracted out from a mag of 2 girls in toned bodies- to reinforce myself everyday that I can be like them too provided I am disciplined!

Enlightenment

This week reminded me again of how easily I can fall back in life (just let me a bit dramatic here and refer this to life okay).

I can still remember, when I was younger I used to be so determined, so full of energy in everything that I do. I used to be very disciplined in my studies and score all A's in everything. I used to train hard to represent my school and state in mandarin public speaking. And now in Uni, I just... do not care that much what I want to achieve anymore. It saddens me because I started off so well at a young age, but as I grow older, this enthusiasm diminishes.

Why the sudden thought of this? Because I am not happy with myself right now, disappointed at the way I approach things. And it call came down to the choosing of subjects. It was a very last minute choice that I made to switch my two of my subjects to Tax Law and ACE (Accounting for Corporate Entities). These 2 are needed for CA or CPA.

All along I have been following the footsteps of my friends, taking this subj and taking that subj. But of late, I realize my passion lies within marketing. And so I decided to major in Accounting & Marketing. I was gonna screw the whole accrediation thing, like CA and CPA. Because I am so firm and certain with myself that I am going to get into PR/Marketing when I graduate. It was then I thought- heck, what exactly does a CA do? I for sure do not want to get into accounting, but what happens if I want to get into consultancy etc? As it seems, CA and CPA does help alot in the field of consultancy.

The dilemma here is if I should take up ACE, instead of Strategic Marketing (a breadth subject). Esp when my parents give me all the freedom in the world and allow me to do anything I want, the dilemma worsens, (sometimes I wish they put on some force on me) because I do not need to stress myself and do a hard subject. ACE is tough, no doubt. I look at the lecture slides also feel like vomitting already. On the other hand, Strategic is SO EASY! But it was only at that moment that I was feeling that way. After distracting myself for a while, I got back to the notes and I thought- hey ACE isn't too bad. If I put my heart into it and learn, I could actually get alot out of the subject. Besides, am I going to miss the opportunity to do a professional accreditation in the future just because I drop this subject? Just because I refuse to face this little challenge, and give up instead? I might not want to do the professional accreditation now but in the future, things might change. I might actually love it.

It was at that point, that moment, that I told myself- never ever am I going to give up that easily in life anymore. As mummy said- there are things in life that we love doing (good for us); but there are also things we do not like that has to be done. It's a balance. A rational and wise one would do what one has and should do. I decided to be one today. And I am not going to let anything in life hinder me in my goals anymore.

I always say I want to get into the Uni badminton team. But I never gotten around to doing anything that will help me towards this path. I am lazy, not discipline, no passion, no nothing. Back in high school I would tirelessly go for training, go to the gym- all actions show clearly, visibly of what I'd do to get what I want. Whatever happened to now?

I guess this changing of subject thing enlightened me; and gotten me around to think that nothing is impossible. ACE is hard, but I will manage. Badminton team is hard to get into, but I will try my very best. (And so I went jogging today for the first time in YEARS, hard to believe myself). I would like to quote a saying I got out of a friend's FB profile, 'life is tough but I am tougher'. How true, it enlightened me in ways I've never thought it would- especially at this point in time.

For this, I also have to thank the 1 hour I spent on the peak of the snow mountains in Hotham- I could not even stand on my snowbaord, what more of boarding down. That one hour was painful, miserable, depressing. I've never felt so dejected in my life before; not being able to do something somehow isn't quite on wei lynn's list. 'how is it possible that everyone can stand on their snowboards, and board down the slope? and i can't?' seeing my friends looking at me hopelessly made me so damned determined to stand. And I did. I could even board down smoothly after that; and continued to improve tremendously.

Amazing, how a sucky situation could turn into a good one, all because of the power of the mind. I was elated, and I felt on top of the world because for the first time in so long, I achieved something again, out of will, out of determination, out of the power of the mind of 'not giving up'.

And so whenever I feel like giving up in something that I do, I will think of my snowboarding moment, that one hour on the peak; and I will conquer whatever challenges that lie ahead of me.

Because I am wei lynn, and wei lynn never gives up!