Of friendship & love

I don't know why of late I am just so lazy to go out and meet new people; that all I want to do is to stay home, or just stay close to people I am close and comfortable with. Though many people would disagree with this and would say I am still the lively, sociable wei lynn but no, looks are not necessarily what it portrays to be.

It was just the other night that I thought, could it be that I am too complacent with the few, handful friendships that I have, love, feel at ease with and treasure- and that is why I do not bother that much to get close to anyone anymore. Or even take the effort to.

And because of this, I might actually miss out on amazing friendships to be forged- where a good two to three friendships may actually end up to be more. Because I really do see alot of good in people, and alot of potential friendships to be made.

The same goes for relationships. Could it be that I have closed my heart for such a long time now that I refuse to learn to believe, have faith, and love, again?

Life in Technicolour

What a long day today! It's only 10.16 p.m. now but I feel so tired already.. Looking at the rest of the boxes in my apartment, I just shook my head; and ask myself why do I have so many clothes and things that I don't even need and use! I'm going to give one whole box away to charity, this is it. I need to get rid of things that are 'extra'. Gosh, could it be similar to mummy's philosophy now of simplying life, ridding things which are not necessary?

Also, a very kind and strict reminder to self: to only purchase things of value- things which I foresee myself using it even in 10 years- things which will possibly last me for a long, long time and I will not get bored of it. Quality, not quantity.

So I went to watch the Australian Open finals today at MSAC! Ahh, so happy! Since young I have always loved watching badminton games, be it on tv or live at the stadium. I will post up the pictures once I lay my hands on them :P Seeing the new president introducing the few new committee members to people like the president of VIC badm association, other players etc did make me wonder if I should have taken up the secretary post offered early of the year. But I guess I decided to leave all these posts and commitments behind now, and I am not regretting it.

And just last night, I had dinner with an old friend. And it made me realize that sometimes, to maintain a friendship one has to look beyond the other's flaws; and instead look for the good traits in that person, and bring it out in him/her. :)

*Yawns, so sleepy already. Think I will head to my warm bed now, and continue to unpack tomorrow. :) Long day tomorrow.. Lunch, lecture, then D & I are going to IKEA to get stuff for my new apartment!! :D Alsoooo.... Sweedish meatballs, here I comee!

G'night everyone! :)

P.S. Trying to make my sleep-early-rise-and-shine-early motto work ;)

Such is life atm... :)

I am getting old. :( After a whole afternoon of karaoke and beer, here I am now at home 9.30 p.m. and all I feel like doing is just... to read a book and fall asleep. Even drinks with teng jun at sultan lounge, mandarin oriental seems tiring now.... Oh no, I really am getting old!!

Anyway, life in M'sia currently is good! I feel that this time is different in the sense that- despite saying no to many outings, I don't feel bad because it's spending time with people who matters that.. matters. :)

I just got back from Aubrey's PRE-21st at redbox, the curve. This bunch treats karaoke like a bar with a free singing package.. the party starts when everyone's high after downing beers! Crazy one.. I must admit it was my first time drinking so much beer while singing, and I first experienced it last week with the same bunch as well. :)

Last night, I hung out with two different groups of friends who make me happy, in two different ways. Dinner with Mei who got back from London at One U was great; she always has stories to share and it's always interesting to just listen :p

Steamboat party after at Kenneth’s was equally great. I forgot how funny that bunch was. Oh and the food.. yummy! Looking at his 'heng dais' hanging out at his place all the time, joking and laughing with his mom puts a smile on my face.. I told myself one day in the future if I ever start a family I'll always have gatherings at my place too! :) Makes the atmosphere so much more meriah! Oh and I also managed to catch up with a few friends I met through Kenneth sometime ago.. Sara, Cindy etc!

Two nights ago, it was yamcha at murni’s with Jiat and Sing Ming, who got back from the UK. Hehe.. Jiat used to be my A-levels chit chat/sms buddy.. super funny dude.. can't remember how we met, probably at the Leo installation night; he was the photographer. Sing Ming hasn't changed either, still the subtle gentleman-ly guy. :)

On Tuesday, I had my usual morning tantrum because I had to send granny and kakak to the market at 7 a.m... and for those who are close to me would know that I am not a morning person. Despite being moody in the morning, I am glad I took them to the market and I don't regret it at all. I love my family so much.

Derek brought me all the way to Klang to have BKT after... I asked Wai Kwan to come along too since I haven't seen her in ages! Hehe D felt bad because the shop he wanted me to try was closed. Nvm la, next time okay mr.yin?? :)

On Monday, it was a one-day Malacca trip with some DJ friends I still kept in touch with till today- Chien Loong, Eiran and Kenneth. So fun lah a bunch of guys come picking you up early in the morning, and to eat with just guys is sheer heaven- because I can eat as much as I want without feeling conscious!! We had the famous chicken rice ball, cendol and satay celup :p *thank you eiran for driving us that day!! such a sweet and nice guy he is!

At night, I made papa & mummy watch ‘he’s just not that into you’ with me- which papa left the show after an hour... hehe. But mummy kept nodding and said it's a good show.. She probably wanted me to catch the hidden meaning in the movie ;) I admit, when I used to like guys I will think and think and think and I will bug her to decipher his moves.. I am sorry for being so annoying sometimes mummy :( Oh and to Ken too.. I bug him like there's no tomorrow.. He's lucky, he's in switzerland now so he can ignore my crap.. ;)

During the weekends, it was a gooood family dinner at The Club, bukit utama. Then Calvin's farewell party at his place.. Cavell's with Pin etc...

And outings go on and on till 2 weeks back....

Tomorrow would be a full day- lunch with Keat and ZY at pizza uno, then Teng Jun's gonna do me a HUGE favour by bringing me all the way to KLCC and The Gardens just to get the two pairs of U.R.S. shoes I want so badly, which One U didn't have my sizes :( At night, it's dinner with family, then vivent's birthday party, then aubrey's thing at cavell's if vv's thing doesn't end late. Last sat at cavell's was so, so fun!~

SIGH.

Such is life at the moment....

So ever reluctant to leave this country again.

P.S. Ding, DH, Yng, Nim, Marcus- I apologize for the delays in meeting up! will try to meet up before I leave :)

Of certain emotions

Sometimes what you see on the surface,

is not what you think it is.

I have learned that sometimes it is best not to reveal everything- all of your emotions, thoughts, feelings, secrets.

And yet- all I want to do sometimes is to reveal all.